Thursday, September 29, 2005
Just this Monday, twice.
Anxiety.
They have largely been realized; but then, they were not excessively grand.
Ambivalence, or so it often appears.
A piano; a patron.
Yes, but there is no shame in not caring to become one.
The intersection of Industry and Privilege.
Trivially so.
The belief that my musical output is a viable commodity.
Worry it.
Winnowing; organization beyond the immediately expedient.
Conversation. Watching a new print of an old film; reading something that I don't have to write about; unexpectedly hearing, in a public space, a song I had forgotten I loved. Having my back scratched.
Anything that does not suggest a misunderstanding.
Ask me about critics.
The utopian; the anachronistic.
Narcotics.
I don't know yet, but suspect it will turn out to be my back.
Letting another speak.
Diffidence, either in itself or -- among the insightful -- as an expression of arrogance; smoking.
Comes tantalizingly close to connecting me to others.
Not even a cult figure.
Any that does not require sleep, metabolizes toxins efficiently, is less easily intimidated, and possesses telepathic powers.
Anxiety.
They have largely been realized; but then, they were not excessively grand.
Ambivalence, or so it often appears.
A piano; a patron.
Yes, but there is no shame in not caring to become one.
The intersection of Industry and Privilege.
Trivially so.
The belief that my musical output is a viable commodity.
Worry it.
Winnowing; organization beyond the immediately expedient.
Conversation. Watching a new print of an old film; reading something that I don't have to write about; unexpectedly hearing, in a public space, a song I had forgotten I loved. Having my back scratched.
Anything that does not suggest a misunderstanding.
Ask me about critics.
The utopian; the anachronistic.
Narcotics.
I don't know yet, but suspect it will turn out to be my back.
Letting another speak.
Diffidence, either in itself or -- among the insightful -- as an expression of arrogance; smoking.
Comes tantalizingly close to connecting me to others.
Not even a cult figure.
Any that does not require sleep, metabolizes toxins efficiently, is less easily intimidated, and possesses telepathic powers.
